May 3, 2013

If caring about anything is as useless as all my friends make it seem, would it be self-defeating for me to simply give up on them and focus on the handful of people who have a passion or genuinely care about something(anything)? Yeah, there are plenty of things that apathy won’t hurt, but when it comes to what someone believes or wants or needs, shouldn’t we, out of pure humanistic love, wish the best for them, even if its absolutely ridiculous?
I had a talk with randy and Andrew tonight about Atlantis, God, and a ton of other crap. Randy essentially said he believes in God and Atlantis, while Jeter and I tried to talk about the existence of evolution even in Christianity. Randy just spewed out everything you would expect a stereotypical change-fearing conservative Christian to say, but who am I to tell him that his belief that humans and apes aren’t related is stupid or that I just don’t care at all? I disagree, from a logical and scientific standpoint, but I care that he believes in something strongly enough to be the only one in a car with two other people who can be very influential most of the time.
Sitting with Brandon day to day at port city and listening to him just go on and on about how much he doesn’t care about what other people do, say, think, etc., makes me sad that someone with so much extra thought can just care so little about people’s ideals. Don’t get me wrong, he’s a great friend and is really thoughtful about plenty of things, but his apathy toward most things bums me out sometimes.
And Aaron. If I hear one more unintelligent, unthoughtful, insult come out of his mouth I’m going to lose it. Sitting with him, Ernie, Blake, Jeter, Brandon, Ryan, and a few other people made me realize how little he thinks or cares for anything aside from the jokes he thinks of in his head, and there’s nothing that bugs me more than a rude and tasteless joke.
But enough of that.
I guess all I want to say is we should all care about everything our friends think, even if its Aaron’s love for not working for recognition or Randy’s weird belief in Atlantis or Brandon’s compulsion to get married and have kids even though he’s only twenty.

I guess I’m using this blog again until I have someone to talk to more frequently again.

December 6, 2012

I just want my friends to be happy. But I’m too selfish and condescending to make it obvious.

November 14, 2012
Thoughts. 11/14/12

Too often are we rigid.
We look down on a person for saying the wrong thing.
We hold a grudge if we aren’t repaid in full; be it cash or treatment.
Not often enough do we forgive and forget.
We may pretend to forgive, but
we will never forget.

When I was little, you knocked me out.
I grew up as soon as I woke up.
I realized it’s best to follow your dreams
and to make something of yourself;
instead of making fake dreams
and making something of those dreams.

November 9, 2012

bothgoners:

Both Goners // Summed Up

I’m in love with this song. I think we did a great job writing it. This song and Sepia are the only two songs I think I’ve been able to want to show people. Maybe because those two songs involved me more, but I also think just for the fact that they’re relevant to what’s popular; especially Summed Up.

I just love how Summed Up has the whole emo feel and the lyrics, while simple, express themselves pretty well. That’s always been my biggest problem with Both Goners lyrics up until that song; they’re either pretentious or too narrow for people aside from the writer to relate (the writer usually being Rory, who just wants people to listen and simply wonder, not relate). The songs that are a true collaboration between us are always the best. Summed Up, Sepia, Aaron’s Untitled (hopefully soon-to-be released), and Real Eyes are the only songs we’ve written that I’ve been at least 75% content with. The two newest are the ones I’m most content with, and I would even venture to say there’s almost nothing I would ever change about them.
When Rory comes to practice and says “here’s a song, I wrote everyone’s parts and the lyrics” I instantly know I’m not going to like it, whether it is actually good or not. Usually the songs that are written that way don’t turn out very well in the first place; i.e. “Lay Me At The Bottom Of A River” (the most pretentious song, and especially song title, I’ve ever been a part of) and whatever the name of the other song is.

Rory has always just written parts of songs, and thrown them together whether they belong together or not. If they’re in totally different keys, he won’t even bother to transpose the parts so that they fit together, he just writes a minute long transitional key change that completely takes away from the parts it’s combining.
When we write songs as a whole, we get songs like Summed Up and Sepia, which flow from part to part well because we wrote each part while we wrote other parts so they could easily come together and be easy on the listener. There are no time changes, no key changes, and each part transitions itself into the next part, unlike some of our other songs that are essentially one big transition into another big transition.


Back to what I really wanted to say.
I’m just really happy about certain things about music right now. Like the couple songs I enjoy and the fact that my first production sounded as good as it did. You would imagine that someone’s first production would be really low quality and the mix would be absolutely terrible. The audio itself was more or less industry standard and the mix was decent enough to release it and promote it.
It’s going to be awesome doing this for a living.

November 1, 2012
Alcohol. 11/1/12

I’ve decided that there is literally nothing about alcohol that I like. After how much it’s been pissing me off to see everybody I know getting fucked up every night, it’s finally gotten to the point that I never want to drink again. I haven’t had anything in a long time, and I’m glad.
I was talking with Josh a few days ago and he said “people say alcohol makes fun times, but alcohol makes times fun.” He’s sort of right. Think about parties when you’re not drunk. They’re a waste of time and there’s nothing fun about them. Once you start drinking, you start having fun. What’s the point of going somewhere that isn’t fun, just so you can put yourself in a different mindset with something as potentially dangerous as vodka? Shots rule and they’re too much fun, but when it’s every weekend, and especially when it’s every night, it’s a complete waste.

A couple of the worst nights I’ve ever had have been alcohol related. A couple of the best nights I’ve ever had have been alcohol related. Most of the best nights I’ve ever had have not been alcohol related.

Drinking is a poor excuse to have fun.


I think it’s mainly the fact that every “father figure” I’ve ever had has had an awful drinking problem, but there’s no way I’m ever going to spend every weekend in a dim strange house drinking something so stupid (although pretty fucking tasty sometimes…) and acting like an asshole just because it’s cool.



I’m sure I’ll go to plenty of parties, but I know I’m not going to make a habit out of drinking at every one of them, or even most of them. It’s fucking useless. I’d rather sit in my room alone drinking water and staring at a blank wall than get fucked up and do something stupid or rude.

October 23, 2012

0ddlove replied to your audio post: The rough mix I got so I can show off the…

This sound good, Sean.

Thank you! It could sound better, if only I had a sound-proof room specifically built for recording drums… hahaha

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October 23, 2012

The rough mix I got so I can show off the unfinished product.

Scratch track guitar, final drums (but not completely mixed or EQed), no bass or vocals.


I used an SM57/58 for the guitar. For the whole intro, I just moved the 58 about five feet from the amp (Fender Telecaster -> Ibanez TS5 -> Fender Twin Reverb), then for the rest of the track I just put the 58 back on the grille.
For drums, I used a CAD Pro-7 drum mic pack. I used all but one tom mic, due to the fact that Randy only plays a 4-piece kit, and I added the SM57 on the hi hats since there wasn’t a hat mic in the pack.

All the mics go into a Tascam US-1641 USB interface, right into my Macbook Pro running Logic Pro 9. I wanted so badly to use some room mics, but I only had one open XLR input and didn’t have any mics aside from a couple SM58s that I just didn’t think would do the job as room mics.
So the drum mics are just for snare, toms, kick, overheads, and hi hats.



I’m very proud of the way my rough mixes have been turning out and I can’t wait to get these songs completely finished.

October 20, 2012
Mixed up on Flickr.

Mixed up on Flickr.

October 20, 2012
Fence on Flickr.

Fence on Flickr.

October 19, 2012
Backyard on Flickr.

Backyard on Flickr.